The thing about everything....

The thing about everything.. "Not knowing where to start, where to begin, how can everything be explain?", you might say. However, have we actually thought of thinking at where everything might end?



Ok, no more philosophical bull and paraphrases from intellectual parenthesis. Have we actually wondered what the world would be like if we all thought of the end, the epilogue, before embarking on our adventours or endevours? You will be surprised at how much we all think in this way.



The rationale behind this statement is that, ladies and gentlemen, fellow bloggers, population of earth...I wholeheartedly wish to declare to you that I am in love. I am in love with the most beautiful maiden that God allowed my eyes to gaze upon. Yet in all that has transpired, lil did I knew, that it all started at the 'end'.



The chronology of how we met..though very interesting and worthy of a post, I prefer not to illustriate. Lets just say, my memories to keep. But what I would like to mention is the spirit in how my loved developed.



I do not have an illustrious love track record, and with such minimum 'hands-on' experience I would not say that I am an expert at love or relationships. But one thing was for sure, I was hurt before, and for this, my heart was always protected by my conscience. But enough said, that past is the past, and for now..what holds before me is the future.



My gorgeous Sayang also came from a similar emotional background as me. Both fell out off love badly and lost a most deared person in our lives at the same time. Though in this situation, I was more fortunate to be able to deal with my grievences and lost earlier on. Sayang had to deal with things very recently. Regardless of the timeline, here were 2 individuals who went through life's morbid expectations which left scars that shall forever remain. But scars heal, though some will ultimately stay, they will be set as a reminder, a mark that would remind us of the learnings from life's parody.



Friendship is a powerfull bond. And tis was friendship that I was offering to Sayang when we first met. It would be a lie if I did not admit to have succumbed to her beauty at the initial acquintance, but my feint heart told me to look deeper, if the desires were to remain. And so friendship it was.



Often in most platonic attempts, the desires to share our lives with an opposite sex, whislt undermining any ostencible underpinnings is, lets be honest, kinda hard. But thankfully, with much encouragement from situational instances, I believed that it might work..that for the heck of it I would have found a friend, a confidant, a person to share life with in Sayang. And I did. And it was great.



The more I knew Sayang, the more I saw the joys of life. As a free spirit, she showed me the potential of living life to the fullest. I had the best times of my life as I could recall. In such a short period, I was able to share the sweets of this earth through the joy shown to me by Sayang. She is a person who loves and is loved. Even underneath all that may crush her spirit and happiness, she never gives up to give life one more chance. Never giving up in life is a courage worthy of valor.

So where does the end begin? Even endings have beginnings. The ending for me was the realisation that everything will end. Everything will end. Friendships, passion, wealth, health, patience, sanity, and this shroud that covers this growing affection for this person. Thus life needs to be lived in the fullest, like it will end the next minute. We can plan as much as we want, and as detailed as we want yet fate still manages to drop you flat in the face. Cliche' as it might sound, when examples are shown to you in full technicolour and Dolby surround sound then, does it really hit you. That was the experiences I gathered being part of Sayang's life. And with that, suddenly everything I ever believed in, thought, imagined, assumed, presumed, my whole foundation of the perspective of what was just changed. It changed forever.

I cant remember a day I felt so alive till I met Sayang. And though Sayang often asks me why I fell in love with her, warning me of her high and lows, I guess I have not said enough..that Sayang I fell in love with you and everything. And the thing about everything is.....

Love for a stranger

Friendship builds from nothing, and dies sometimes from nothing. The death of a friendship is unbearable. Strange as this maybe, time will heal all wounds. And leave us with the memories. Memories that some, strangely consciously we fight hard to forget. And in those memories those strangers fade away. But in some, they forever remain.

But given a chance, just one chance, just one chance is all I ask.. I will sit high up amongst the hills, and to the valley below, will I scream to the top of my lungs, until all breath is taken away from me.. to say the one thing that makes us no stranger to each other.........

The story so far....

Dear Bloggers,

Its been ahwile. My dedication to write..hmphhh probably at best be described as utterly inconsistent. As usual, the excuses are given..work, outstation, project, and and and..but somehow today I managed to gather up some quality time with me, my laptop, a stash of Mentos SourMix and some tunes blazing through this microscopic speaker of my feeble handphone, since it happens to be that my laptop speakers went bonkers. Note to friends, an outdated iPOD for a birthday present would be nice! (Hint!Hint!).

You know the 'ol saying of the elders, in faith in God, and thou shall prevail. Well, God has been very kind to me lately. The decision to buy my house was, kinda impulsive. I wasnt like going around scouting for places, compiling brochures, cross-referencing every details of loans, MRTA offers with location, price and affordability. Nope...it was kinda..damn, the wedding funds there, but errr..no girl..so..hmmmm, change my ride? Yeah kinda did that modified Honda Bullet thingy to catch some action, which was blurgh..and at minimum some action by minah rempits..that never prevailed. So, decisions, decision. Hot ride or your own pad?

Then it hit me, what if get the pad, paint the walls psychedelic pink, install rotating bed, mirrorball on the ceilings and smog the place with Mojo incense, then get the hot ride! Yup. Seems like a good plan. So a houselah. Decision decided.

So off thee went, into the Batmobile, breezing through LDP arriving at Taipan at which I approached Sime UEP. Called up a friend and ask for a walkthrough of the current existing projects that were going on. Sime UEP has custody of good locations, so it was an obvious choice for me to look there first for options. Apart for some additional incentives for staff purchase, the property appreciation for Ara Damansara and Putra Heights was far above 20%. Got hold of a list of available good units and off I was to view them.

So, brought 'lil sis along for the ride, looking at the houses along Putra heights and Ara Damansara. As the available, and affordable Ara lots were not attractive, we whisked ourselves to the far reaches of USJ, and set foot on Putra Heights. Browse through Laman Putra untill, ever so cooly my sister said, " Oh my God, Cantiknyeee!!!". At which my response was ok, take foto and show Dad.

Back home, showed Dad the brochure that entailed the layout of that particular unit, some fotos to get a better picture, at which Dad turns around and tells me, " How much am I willing to spend?". To which my reply was the whole wedding funds. An eyebrow was raised..proceeded by a grin. At this point, he was looking at that units largest build up size. That particular size had a nice guest room; which is obviously for him. He pointed out that when he started in life, he was scraping the barrel to sustain his income with family and house. So, looking sharply at me, why should I suffer less!

So, it was set. I went to Sime UEP, plonked in the deposite and there you go. Bought the house. As of to date not only did it take my wedding funds to get through the first payment, but totally exhausted the EPF account 2 and my fixed savings. Not to mention my current savings account was dried up...left barren like an empty well. To sustain myself, had to go through some tough times asking Dad for money to pay the toll and petrol..malunye!

But, so has it, just when I thought I had to brave the winter, in comes a memo from HR confirming the profit sharing from Conti global. So, as you know it a certain bonus would be paid out this month for the company's international profit! Whoahoooh! Alhamdulillah. God has ways to surprise you sometimes.

Which comes to a point, a man does not choose his destiny, he tries his best in life until finally his destiny appears before him. So, thats the new motto. The new vision. The new philosophy. As we near ourselves to the end of 2007, I can only mention the highlight of this year as much:

• Acat and Juan got married. All praise to God for finding my best bud happiness
• My cuz Weween's amazing wedding..best wedding event so far
• Bought the house. Bought the love shack.
• Acat being a dad for the first time.

So, being that I wouldnt know till when I would be able to write again, I wish all bloggers, Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha, Happy Christmas Holidays and a smashing good year.

P.S. Sorry Juan. Didn't had it in me to talk bad about women. Who am I to say or judge people especially to the companion and equal of men.

This is the house that 'Jack' built

Dear Readers,

Aha! So just to update to you guys I am officially the owner of Lot no 42, Jalan Putra Indah, Putra Heights. Tis, ladies and gents, is my humble abode. I bought this house after Raya. It was, to some extent based on some frustration as well as a certain decision I decided I should take should I end up at 30 and single.

Ok, I'm not yet 30, but 28 going on to 29! I have saved up some money for a grand wedding, but alas a promise of granduer doesn't seem to attract ladies of this yore..I guess. So to Hell with them (for the moment) and I welcome this latest offerring (semua berkat rezeki datang dari Tuhan, kan?) with open arms. Alhamdulillah.
I have to admit that its kinda big even for guys that are just starting a family. Selalunye a simple 20 x 70 or 24 x 70 dah kire cukuplah, but I seem to push the envelope by purchasing a 29 x 75 size home! Tah ape nak buat with all that space..God knows. Actually there was a few options before this house, but the most important choice was that Dad was comfortable with the house. He had the last say. He would be an integral part of this house, so his comfort does come up as top priority in the decision factor.

As usual, the temptation of decorating memanglah teramat sangat. Gone are the car magazines, in come the interior design journals. I have been salivating over Pottery Barn catalogues on the bed and on the 'stool'. Nasib baik my cousin is an interior decorator, boleh mintak tips. So now I have a new obsession; taking photos of places and friends houses if I find some ideas that they have done tickles my fancy. Nasib baik dah upgrade memory card handfon! Just recently spent last Saturday with Acat and Juan, in which I asked Juan what was the colour of her cream coloured wall! Ideas, beb!

This house also managed to open up a new family routine in which my sisters demand that we try to meet up every weekend to discuss of this house punye decoration. Theres 2 reasons for this:

1. My eldest Nadya has also purchased a house, so throwing ideas around togather to work out the best solutions for each others property.
2. Should I still be single in the next 5 years.. then my house hold 2 purposes as a meeting/gathering/party location or as a romantic weekend excursion for my eldest should she want to get a way from it all. Applies too for little sis but she's got to get married first!

So, basically the theme is very cozy and very sexy as well. Hmm will go well with the 'player' ambience I was suggesting. Kire 'lovenest'lah! Haha. But sorry for my fellow bloggers there is a certain rental fee that I will be charging should you require such opportunities.

Most recently Raya came in and out so quickly. Nothing special happened. The normal sembahyang raya, visit kubur Arwah Mak, then off to big sis for the family foto. Which reminds me, the foto above showed the dangers of eating too much lemang Pak Ali..bloated siut. (or memang I have put on weight).

Oh ya, and to top the Raya event, nothing is complete without visiting my extended family, Acat's family. Here we have a foto of myself and the Rafali's. Hehe, dats a cute pic of Juan though!

Right, seems that the excitement of having a house and an empty canvas to decorate happens to engulf my available free time. I hope I am not boring you guys with future post regarding decorative decisions and all. Hehe..my own Pad! Whoahhh! Kire tis would be the only thing I could blog about memandangkan my savings are up to zero since I dish it all out on the house. So my finances need to be strictly monitored as well as some carefree/careless lifestyle must be changed. and ohya..the wedding funds have been sacrificed so potential dates..I guess a cozy stall would have to do..sorry.

Right..till the next post, all the best ya'll and live life to the fullest.