The sense of belonging.

Here is an excerpt that appeared in a WWF (wildlife federation) add that I think would benifit us all.

" The question that we all ask, as humans, and as the race of man, why are we here? We know that planktons are the basis for food for the sea, that spurns the living in the seas. Small ameabas and micro-organisms that help to provide life on one surface.

We know that trees are here to provide oxygen. We know why lakes are formed to make basins for the balance of life on terrains. And like all, why other species exists, so that to live in the whole cycle of life.

I do not know why we are here, but I do know that of all creations we are the ONLY beings that have the power to protect these other species ....and even to protect ourselves."

Very powerfull. I must say. Saw the add, a tear kinda shed a bit. Hmm, maybe getting to sentimentle thses days.

So, to reflect on my side..why am I still in this factory? Well, for what its worth, the long hours, average pay, intense pressure, sleepless nights and all backaching job...I have the power to change the lives of 24 men and their families. In me they come by and trust their very lives (literally) with. With every greased sweat and nights they sacrifice coz.."I believe in Cik Mat". The feeling when I had to retrench a person, very good worker and he just looked up to me and smile and said, "Cik Mat. I know things are worst. I am in the bracket. Lets just let things be. It was an honour working with you , sir"

People. We have responsibilites. To our wife, children, frens, workmates, and every person in the world. As of when the situation happens, we must act tactfully.

To those people who still wander on their inexperience and waffle about we make mistakes, I dont know what I am or what decisions I would do, forgive my innocence of negligence, no need to worry learn from mistakes...life will fall back..I pose you the question of sincerety.

If you are sincere in a relationship, you wont hide behind false pretenses. If you are sincere in frendship, then you would not do upon a fren what you would not want a person to do on you. If you are sincere in work, striving to be the best is your objective.

In life..there are no best frens, just close frens. There is also no bad frend. There are just frend. Logically, why be frens with bad people, right?

I have been used and abused by many. People who say they would love you, they dont. People who've loved you fell out of it. People who say they would like to give it a try, only to leave you high and dry the minute later. Basically, the one who loves me is my family, a guy called Acat (close frend love onelah!) and the factory.

Thus..I am officially putting up the coat. Dah malas. To those who know me, I have tried. My ever so depleting finances in my pocket as testament to my expensive trying to give the lady a good time expenditure. Not to mention the have to be there on time. The waiting. The breakdowns and factory time I sacrificed. Well, begone you women.

So, makciks. Red light open. Go ahead. Get me someone with breast. Face who cares. Got tummy lantak pi. She has only one purpose... and that is to procreat, bear my children. Shutup. Cook and have sex as of when I want to. No more mister nice guy, ahmad the gentlemen. As of now, once arranged..its contractual.

However I would still keep my promise. That girl would still be the person i have sex with till I die or if she tak tahan and leaves me. That girl would still get a b'day present. I will take care of her meals and her expenses and ocassionally treat her to a nice dinner. I will not raise my hand or abuse her nor will a bruise be place on her.

Its just that..my dear girl..u are like a car. A contract. I do not love you. CAn you live with that?