Clowns to left of me, jokers to the right, here I am stuck in the middle with you

2006. U know what? Theres so many things that happen during our lifetime. Most bigtime event was Sept 11. Then the Anwar vs Mahathir. Then the Mahathir retirement and the beginning of a new era. Monsoons, tsunamis you name it, the whole gamut of events in this lifetime. I must be damn lucky.

2006. The year, I realised, I'm still stuck to the ground. Like an old Sycamore tree, standing proudly, aging as it will, but sits right there. Just right there. The hills are gone, and skyscrapers make up peaks to our urban valleys. 3G technology, broadband network communication, and eating sushi is the "in thing". Hairs, are now in black, white , crimson and perwinkle blue. The young and the old appreciating manicures and padicures. The age of the metrosexuals. Cars are running on batteries.

2006. Your 26. Your not married. Your not seeing anybody. Your fat belly seems to complement its size by an inch on every birthday. You got two cars, a moving career and the customary elegent watch to prove you've arrived. You're desperately trying to lose weight, but you're desperately satisfying your hunger.

2006. Its been 5 years since you've broke up with your first love. Do you miss her? You know you do. But why do you? You dont know. But its 5 years! Move on. Move on. If only this legs can run faster. Yeah faster. Run. Thats good. should try running. That'll get the inch out of the waist.

2006. Its been two years of hiding. Hiding? Yeah from the truth. I finally care for someone. You do? Yeah. Seriously, who can top Anisa? She can. Does she? Ya. But she's not topping anybody. She is just ....she. Ok so why hide? I got to. Yes, we know but why? I cant be with her. Why? Its just not right. What do you mean? Its just not right! What is? Its complicated. Try me? Its just If I mess it up..I'll mess it up. So! She's just another. Another what? Just another

2006. The factory is not doing good. Business is tough. Life can't be any worst. But on the bright side, you're going to be an uncle! Hahah Uncle Polar.

2006. The day I realised, my best fren has moved on. He's got new frens now. I'm just a person in the past he remembers. And so too are the rest, the college clans and university mates. Moved on have they with their lives. You have no fren ahh? Well, guess its just has to be. Wah, you quite sad case huh?

2006. Five years since mom's gone. Dads fine, but I guess he's lonely. He loves mom. I miss her too. Sometimes thinking about our gossip sessions by the kitchen table over biskut marie and tea. YOu know what? Never realised that its tough to find funny girls in this day an age. Fortunately, my youngest sis is a blast. But kind of miss my eldest. Kinda miss Naea. Hang on! got so much things to do. Dad needs a new pair of pants. Little sis needs to brush up on her driving skills and ...need to patch things up with big sis. Need to remember mom's last wishes, "..he can be difficult but you need to take care of him" Well mak, he is difficult, but you know what? He's taking care of me most of the time. Haha!

2006. November 9. Two more days to the road trip. Whoaaahahha!

2007? I guess if I'm still alive, still got a job, haven't found new frens, still in lost with best frens, girl of dreams is just a dream, girl you care still doesn't feel the same, and still stuck with two cars and a demanding career,


... I guess it'll be clowns to the left of me, jokers to the right, here I am still stuck in the middle with you (bloggers!)